some of my friends can be fucking idiots. they criticize me about my relationship, yet they don't know what true love is.

the feeling of security everytime i'm with her, how all my problems seem to melt away. how i can be real around her, how she listens to all my shit no matter how stupid it is, how she appreciates me and makes me a priority

every little thing she does makes me really happy. i love cooking with her, i love cuddling with her, i love holding hands

when she sleeps next to me, i feel at ease

it's the greatest feeling in the world to know that she appreciates me and makes me a priority

everything we do feels so perfect

i love you, ECI! <3

Go to him, stay with him if you can
But be prepared to bleed

there's been this one memory that's been haunting me the past few days...

back in october, i visited a high school friend at UConn with some of my other high school friends. i got pretty drunk, and at about 3 am, we all went back to my friend's dorm. i was lying down on my friends' roommates' bed, and most of my friends were hanging outside in the hallway. then, my friend Jason walked in, and he lied down on my friends' bed. i had a breakdown and vented to him that i really missed my dad. he asked me, "what would your dad want you to do?" and the first thing that came to my head, which i said outloud was, "kill myself" and then immediately began to cry uncontrollably....

I don't know about my dreams.
I don't know about my dreamin anymore.
All that I know is
I'm fallin, fallin, fallin, fallin.
Might as well fall in

it's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife

can it be summer alreadyyy?! fuckk schoollll

it's hard to believe she's my longest relationship. i'm pretty excited, though, in all honesty. i'm crazy about her. she's the only girl that i've really lost sleep over because i can't stop thinking about her. she's the only girl that makes me feel really great

i love you

ECI <3

"I need you so much closer"

"Baby how I dream of being free since my birth
Cursed but the demons I confronted would disperse 
Have you ever heard of some shit so real  
Beyond from the heart, from the soul you can feel"

 

i can't wait until it gets warmer outside! i miss my fresh J's, my middies and my favorite pair of shorts </3

i've come to realize recently that i've been feeling like my dad. i've been working my ass off and making mad sacrifices to reach my goals. whatever. i just gotta remember that all of this work is for a good cause

i can't fucking lose her...she's too god damn important to me <3

"i tell girls my war stories feeling like my father" - Main Attrakionz

i've had the song "Chuch" stuck in my head allll day today and this line always gets to me. i'm not sure why