you got a face to call home <3

i'm going to dedicate myself to my school work this semester. it's my last one at central, and i have to go out with a bang

i'm really nervous about transferring. i know i'll get into uconn, but i'd much rather go to conn college. my grades are great, and i wrote a solid essay, so i'm feeling pretty optimistic

the semester has gotten off to a rocky start so far, however. i'm already having problems with my suitemates. thankfully, i'm moving out of there tomorrow night back to my old dorm, which i'm actually pretty excited about

other than that, i've been seeing a lot of fellow OL's on campus quite frequently, and it's nice that i'm able to recognize and say hi to a lot of familiar faces!

i just found out that the transfer rate at conn is 20-30%, and they usually take 10-20 transfer students for the spring semester. i'm praying that i get in....


i've worked my ass off this past year, and especially in high school, and i really deserve to go there

after my dad died, the only positive thing in my life has been Emily. i'm looking for some big changes to happen to finally be able to take pride in what i do, and stop being so anxious about fucking bullshit

i just really hope the odds are in my favor

I would take a bullet for you

how can anyone be happy with mediocrity?

i find it hard not to be bogged down with all the bullshit in the world

what if my life turned out differently? i always ask myself this question

what if the knife went in? if my car had actually swerved off the road? what if my dad were still alive?

all these fucking disjointed thoughts keep me awake at night. and i just lie awake praying for sleep to overcome my drained body

i feel so weak sometimes

When I get into arguments, I immediately get my guard up. But i hate when other people do the same. H-y-p-o-c-r-i-t

In high school, I used to love being numb. I would walk around the school with my guard up at all times, my walls built up. I felt so numb. Not caring about anyone or anything. It didn't even feel like I was myself. Nowadays I feel like I care too much about everything

i hate going to bed without you

my biggest fear in life is losing you