Tuesday, June 19, 2012

i was walking at the reservoir this morning, crying to myself

thinking about conn college and how i deserve to be at that school much more than a lot of the fucks who go there

getting down on myself, because i wanna be happy and make my dad proud

while i was there, i was thinking to myself how cool it would be to see this middle age asian couple i frequently see walking. they are genuine people. the man has long black hair, which is now graying, tucked behind his ears, and his wife trails behind. she gives off a pleasant aura

and i thought to myself, "i haven't seen them walking yet. maybe they're not here. but if i do, then i know that it will be a sign that i will transfer to conn"

i like to ascribe great cosmic significance to seemingly inconsequential events, but they are actually not inconsequential

i put this thought aside, and didn't really think about it

instead, i dwelled on my unhappiness and that i want to transfer schools

i was getting discouraged, until the last leg of the walk

i climbed a hill, and saw the couple!

the man gave me a really big smile, and the wife, who usually just nods, grinned her teeth at me. it was incredibly genuine!

after i passed them, my heart began to pound. will my thought come true? will i successfully transfer to conn?

i hope so

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