so tonight, a couple of girls that i was hanging out with called me a "straight gay best friend"

what the FUCK is that?

i resent that shit so much. they said that i'm not really a "guy's guy" they said i was a gentleman, but couldn't they have just stopped after that?

great. guess i give off that kind of vibe

where along the line have i changed that much? so what that i prefer the company of girls? it's harder for me to make connections with guys.

and i guess that makes me effeminate? it makes me so furious that people see me as that

i've never struggled so hard to fit in. i'm so outgoing, and nobody seems to appreciate it

i shouldn't have to feel bad about this, and i shouldn't be internalizing this so much

but i always care about what people think of me

i'm polite, and respectful, but apparently, no one wants that in a guy, because it makes me seem weak

i like who i am