I feel so bitter and vindictive. I've finally become her. She was so spiteful. Always saying, "no, no, no. I'll never talk to you/see you again." I feel that bitterness bubbling up to the surface every day. Like damn, I've finally become her.

She wrecked me. Ruined me. I had to pick up all of the pieces of my life after we ended everything. I gave her everything and then I ruined myself in the process. It took me so long to rebuild myself from nothing. And even now I still feel so fucked up mentally and emotionally. I'm not whole. I never will be. I haven't been since when I was 17. And even less when I was 23. Now that I'm 25, I feel so shitty. Where did my life go? Was this where I thought I would be when I was this age?