even though i finished the semester with a 4.0 GPA, and had a cumulative GPA of 3.96, and am taking a summer class, i feel like a bum.

i feel like i could be doing more, and it makes me feel really guilty

i know that i'm trying my best and it's humanly impossible to be able to do everything, but it still makes me feel bad

i really need you, babe.

ever since i started college, i've come to the realization that things happen for a reason

Now don't you understand
That I'm never changing who I am?

I like who i am, and i'm not fucking changing for anyone. i like that i'm a really romantic and passionate guy. i take solace in receiving and doing small gestures.

but i also wear my heart on my sleeve and i'm fine with that

i like that i'm sensitive, because that allows me to relate to people. i'm really social and i put myself out there

i'm really smart and motivated

but most importantly, i'm caring and genuine

i love surrounding myself with people. i have a way of being able to find the good in anyone. i just have a lot of faith in humanity 

"when two people become a couple, the brain extends its idea of self to include the other, instead of the slender pronoun "I," a plural self emerges who can borrow some of the other's assets and strengths."

love ain't a thing
love is a verb

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much

Gravity is workin' against me

so you should pump this shit, like they do in the future

so now that freshman year is over, it's time to reflect:

this year has definitely been a trying time for me, but all in all it was a good year. i've made mistakes, but i've learned a lot about myself.  i broke things off with a girl i was never meant to be with, i made new, really good friends. most importantly, i learned who my true friends are. and that i definitely made really good friends in high school that i know i'll still be friends with for life.

i'm definitely more confident in my abilities and who i am as a person. i like who i am. i suppose people like me, seeing as everyone always says how nice i am, which definitely makes me feel good

most importantly, i met the girl of my dreams. she makes me really happy, and i couldn't be happier with anyone else <3

also, getting dean's list isn't so bad either

When I was a young boy
I watched my father grow old
But now that I'm older
I'm tryin' to let him go

When you got no one around you
There's no one to let you down

All day long I sat around and watched my old man shrink in the sun

i make mistakes, i fall down. i dust myself off, pick myself up and move on with my life

the end's not near
it's here

i really hope next semester is better

i literally can't fucking do this anymore

Why is life made only for to end?
Why do I do all this waiting then?
Why this frightened part of me that's fated to pretend?
Why is life made only for to end?

I miss you so much it hurts sometimes

i wish summer would last forever. i don't want to have to go back to school in the fall...

college is fucking stupid

sometimes i wish i weren't so motivated to do schoolwork. i wish i were more social and outgoing and went to a better school. but in reality i'm a really shy person and i don't know where i fit in

Yes, I understand that every life must end, aw-huh,..  
As we sit alone, I know someday we must go, aw-huh,..  
Oh I'm a lucky man, to count on both hands the ones I love,..
Some folks just have one, yeah, others, they've got none, huh-uh
 
Stay with me,..  
Let's just breathe.

Did I say that I need you? 
Did I say that I want you? 
Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see,.. 
No one knows this more than me. 
As I come clean.

 

i just wanna know that you think about me as much as i think about you.

Now the both of us are colorblind
Cause the other side looks greener
Which leaves your turf in the Boise state
Can't see her play or the team, cuz

Everybody has an addiction; mine happens to be you
And those who say they don't
Souls will later on say to them "that ain't true"