I finally fulfilled my dream of moving out to Colorado! I moved into Boulder last week. I guess I had really high expectations of how things would be  - classic. I just guess I felt like Colorado would instantly solve my problems or something, but that's obviously not the case. I just guess I imagined things differently. Boulder can be a hectic place, where everyone drives such nice cars, kind of like my hometown, but different in so many ways. I came out here to be more spiritual, to connect with nature, and find myself more. Who am I? What makes me tick? I guess this year will be a valuable learning experience in self-discovery. I'm looking forward to making new friendships, and fostering old relationships as well. I'm definitely still home-sick though. I miss my dogs and my family - my home and my room. But I need to be appreciative of everything I do have, because this is definitely something I've always wanted for many years now, and I think it'll be a valuable experience! I'll learn how to be more independent, as well. It'll be a great opportunity to grow and change as a person.

I just wish that my dad were here with me to experience Colorado. He would have loved it out here. He loved exploring and experiencing new places. He would be so proud of me. I just wish he were physically here to experience this with me, but I always carry him on my back with me. It's hard to believe that this October will be 5 years since he passed away. 5 years. Half a decade. I just wish he were here so badly. I miss him so much. He would have loved the beautiful drive into Estes Park, the beautiful Flatiron mountains, the small towns in northern Colorado, the school I'll be working in. I just hope that he's proud of the man I am today. He was always so supportive, nurturing and on top of everything - he always knew where to go on vacations, and always had everything planned out. He knew everything he was doing at all times. He's my hero, my role model. I just wish one day that I'll be half the man that he was. Sure he had his flaws, but to me, he was superman. He and I didn't always see eye to eye, and he always had such high expectations, but he was the best dad I could ever ask for