Went on a date with a great new girl on Saturday. We really connected and I thought that things were going really well. I felt like i immediately knew her and was comfortable with her. I hadn't felt that since I was with Emily. She and I connected immediately on our first day of meeting. If anything, I felt more of a connection with this new girl, Sophie. She and I went for sushi in downtown Boulder and walked around after and then went to her place and talked. We spent 7 hours together. I made plans to see her last night, Wednesday. I was having a really rough week, and the only thing getting me through the week was the thought of seeing her. I was so excited to see her, and she had a surprise planned for me. She drove last night, and we went mini golfing. She treated me, and it was really sweet. We had a great time, or so I thought. We went back to her place after, and we hung out with her roommates and they were grilling me about who I was, and my dating history. I thought it was endearing because they wanted to get to know me. Sophie kept talking about how we needed to go skiing together in the winter, and how we should hang out in the future. When I left, her roommates said "see you soon, Mike!" Which I understood as that i would see Sophie again. She didn't give me a kiss goodbye, but merely a hug. I left feeling anxious and really uneasy for some reason. I got home, and felt like I wanted to cry, because I had a bad feeling about how Sophie and I ended things. I felt empty and alone for some reason. She texted me an hour later and said that although she really likes me and felt a connection, she couldn't see me because she needs to work on herself and figure herself out independently. I was fucking devastated. I could see myself with her, but now that's over, and I'm not sure where to go from here. Not even 24 hours ago, I was so excited to see her, and now I feel so empty and alone. Why is God testing me? What did I do to deserve this pain and suffering? Dating is fucking difficult. I'm putting so much time and energy into this, and not getting any return yet. All I'm getting is heartbreak and heartache. I feel like my heart's been ripped out of my heart, and I'm just sitting here feeling empty, alone and lost. Where do I go from here? How do I go on? I feel so alone and lonely. I love Colorado, but this place is really testing everything about me. It's trying to make me break, but I won't fucking break. I've been through too much to lay down and give up. I'm a goddamn fighter. If I can get through the loss of my father, I can definitely get through this. It'll just take time. I'm more devastated by Sophie than by my break up with Emily. I just really hope this will work out