i came to the sudden realization today that i am completely and utterly on my own

i feel like i have to figure things out on my own, because at the end of the day, not many people have my back

most of the time, it seems that everyone has some sort of bullshit ulterior motive or some factor that is driving them to do the things they do, and some of the time, what people say to me is self-satisfying to that individual, and kind of leaves me hanging

i should be used to this by now, but like everytime, this still amazes me

that people have the capacity to let me down. perpetually