while i was in the library today, i had the weirdest sense of deja vu. i had some flashbacks from high school, and how it eerily coincided with some events i noticed today.

for instance, every time i go to my child rights class, i feel like i'm being transported to my intro to sociology i took as a senior in high school, where there were only 3 guys and we barely spoke up. in my current class, there are 6 guys and 30 girls.

and how recently i've been obsessed with the book "the catcher in the rye" which was my favorite book when i first read it sophomore year in high school

and much like sophomore year in high school, i can't seem to have the pieces click and i ended up hanging out with only one or two friends, much like my current situation

it sucks how things come full circle and i realize that i'm not nearly at the place i want to be physically emotionally and mentally

i wish i were able to work out more and that i think i had a better physique in high school

i guess god is testing me or something. maybe i need to learn from my mistakes or something, but i'm sick of feeling sorry for myself and this crippling depression i succumb to.